The saying, ”see ya later Gainesville”, did not age well for C squad. 

Once again, we have been set back from getting out of the states. After someone on our squad tested positive for covid we learned that we wouldn’t be leaving just yet. So instead of being in Guatemala right now, I’m stuck in a 8 by10 room.

In this time of my life I can’t help but question things:

Where’s Jesus in this? 

Am I ever gonna get overseas? 

I raised 15 grand for this?

Where’s the adventure?

I signed up a year ago thinking by now I would be overseas for four months. Rather, I have spent 3.5 months in Gainesville.  Growing in a deeper intimacy with the Father. When I first heard about it I wasn't too excited about it. (I wrote more in depth about my time in Gainesville in my last blog. Check it out)

 I was also supposed to go home for what was supposed to be a week in November… This also didn’t age well. We all received an inglorious email starting with the words, “Dear Racers” telling us that the week at home is  turning into a month. Despite my month spent at home, I was still able to find comfort in the Holy Spirit. I had so many life giving conversations with my Mom and Dad, my friends, and my brothers. I left December filled with gratitude because of who the Lord is. 

Flashing forward to January 6th, at 11:30 pm, our entire squad is all packed ready to leave for the airport at 4 am the next morning. The only thing left to check off our list are our negative covid results.  Kate, our squad mentor, came and broke the news that someone on our squad tested positive, and therefore everyone has been exposed. We were then told  we have to quarantine for the next week,  hoping to leave in 10 days. 

Being able to step back and see where the Lord has been in these past seasons of change has been comforting as I enter the next 10 days.. I know that this one is no different. So even though this is hard, I’m going to choose Him as I watch Jesus workin my life. 

It’s safe to say the Lord has been teaching me a lot about what it looks like to abide completely in Him. He’s been teaching me to give up my dreams and desires for adventure and rest in Him. Because He satisfies and being fully sold for the Lord is the most adventurous thing I could ever dream of. I have learned to embrace 

the pain with the Lord. So I’m content because the Lord is here with me and that's enough.